once more, with feelings
What are the keys to your heart? (blogthings.com) Pag bored nga naman...
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
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Hmmmmm.. I'd say 75-80% accurate.
10:31 AM
Monday, May 30, 2005
schmuck quiz
How sinful are you?
Your Deadly Sins
Sloth: 60%
Envy: 40%
Gluttony: 0%
Greed: 0%
Lust: 0%
Pride: 0%
Wrath: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%
You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.
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UGH UGH UGH. Ang sagwa naman ng ikamamatay ko! Ang laswa pa! Hassle. And I don't even watch Star Trek :S Grrrr....
10:18 AM
pau's leaving! tatoff's back!
Tatoy's back in Manila, but we haven't seen each other yet. Ugh. Antagal. 5 days felt like a month. Okay OA, pero that was my mom's way of putting it. What time will he get here kaya? Ugh I can't wait... Namiss ko na ang mokong. Haaaayyyyyyy.... :)
Anyway, it was nice to be in Ateneo yesterday. Coni, Abby and I attended Pau and Rhey's JVP Send Off Mass at the oh-so-wonderful-solemn-Camp-Big-Falcon Church of the Gesu. They're off for their province of destination tomorrow and today, respectively. Wow. I still can't believe Pau's parents allowed her, being the only child that she is. Well, good for you, Paula! I'm really happy and excited for your newfound freedom. Enjoy the rest of the year, girl! We'll miss you!!!! But hey, you're just a YM away right? Enjoy the men of Ateneo de Naga, harharhar. But seriously, may you find yourself, get to know YOU more and experience 'adult' life on your own. If I only I got the chance to take that leap, I would. Too bad I'm quite 'mukhang pera' to sacrifice a year's work, and pay. :P
Oh yeah, JM's back too! Where's my pasalubongssss? Tatoy, you better give me something. Hehe joke. As long as you make it alive and well, I'm a happy bunny :)
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Pong, Jeff, Coni & I went to Eastwood last night after the merienda at Cervini. We ate at Dencio's and gorged like crazy on the bottomless-ness of the iced tea and lemonade. I think we're almost through with the alcohol drinking phase. Not! We were just broke and kinukuripot. :P
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Random lang.
I haven't watched Star Wars. He hasn't also.
Rhey only found out yesterday that T & I are together. Hehe surprise before she left for Palawan :)
I just ate lunch because I'm a batugaaannn.
I tried the belly dancing VCD my mom bought, and now I feel weak. I'm so physically ppfffttt.
As much as I miss going to the gym and sweating like there's no tomorrow, I'm such a cheapskate, and I don't want to allot some of my salary on it. Ugh.
I hope mother sponsors my gym needs. I'm currently not happy with my physique, even if Tatoff assures me that there's nothing wrong. Ugh stop being too nice. Hehe joke :)
My mother's a workaholic. Everyday, from Monday up to Sunday, she wakes up earlier than me, and she just doesn't stop to rest and bum even just for a couple of days. Last night, she texted me and told me that she's in a clinic due to low blood. Then this morning, she was up and about to go to Manaoag. Whatdaaaa?!?!? Akala ko ba??!?!?! (Ngayon alam ko na kung kanino tlaga ko nagmana :P)
Yehey he's home! But it will take awhile for him to get here. Hmmmm.. Must be patient. Must be patient.... AAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!
3:27 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
sinusitis suck
I've blowing my nose non-stop since yesterday. Darn it.
I'm still not in the mood to write. Is it my new template? Isi it because of phenylpropanolamine? Is it because of work? Is it because I miss someone? Ugh ugh ugh I hate this.
Okay, that's all I have to say today. Haay what's wrong with me? :P
1:50 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
pic ulit
Wala lang, I'm too lazy to write so I'll just post a pic again.
Oh he's on his way to Cagayan de Oro this afternoon. He'll be back on Sunday. Haayyyyyy... Missing period.
I hate sore throat, phlegm and this stupid humid and drizzly weather.
Hello to my balahurang officemate who knows my blog address. :P
4:55 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
wonderful weekend
The Design Department (again) was at Balai, San Juan Batangas, with Ms. Jane and Ms. Vibes of HR.
Had a blast, man :)
Played volleyball,chased after the ball a million times, had my kalyos scraped off by playing barefoot, lost and lumusot sa ilalim ng legs ng mga lalaki, drank alcohol as usual, had 'bonding' and evaluation activities, swam, had a bladder problem on our way there, didn't know how to play with the Lunarang, played the question game, finish-the-sentence game etc. and got sunburned, got body pains, fell off the narra hammock, got irritated at my noisy roommate, needed anger management classes on our way home, had tons of laugh trip moments with my officemates. Sa uulitin! ;-)
Then got home and Tatoff went to the condo. He gave me a customized Magic card and a pink balloon courtesy of my favorite answer to all his questions, "Piso may kasamang lobo". hehehehe ;-D
What a weekend. :-)
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On the other hand, I miss my SND friends... Tatoff's going to Cagayan de Oro for 5 days, JM's leaving for Bicol, Pau's going to Naga for JVP, Randy's gonna be in Singapore for 3 months.
Ugh how depressing :(
3:47 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
calvin & hobbes :-)
Hehe ang kyuuuuttttt!!!!! :)
from www.progressiveboink.com
Anyway, my officemate has been asking me for advice on how to woo her ex back, and he's making a Calvin poster to convey his message. He's also putting petals on her bed. Wow. I told him "May lalaki pa palang gumagawa nyan". Haha wala lang, astig.
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We're going out tonight. Shocks, I didn't mean to wear my "Stay Single" shirt on our monthsary. But I know he's assured and all, so it doesn't matter.
I'm excited to see him! Haay sana 6pm na! :)
5:27 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
arrrrrggghhhhhhh
Bakit access denied ung blacker than black template koooo??!?!!? Anong kina-87% of sexual nature non??!?!!? UGGGGGHHHHHHH! Pati ba naman blog template, bawal??!!? Badddd trriiiiiiippppppppp....
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Anyway, I should be happy because we just came form a shoot and we pigged out big time, thanks to the wonderful food stylist, Ms Lydia :) Grabe ang galing magluto, at ang damiiiii. Whew.
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Haay I feel a bit low. I haven't had the time to prepare for monthsaries, and I just keep disappointing myself each month. I know I can do more. But when I have to work til 9pm everyday, it just doesn't suffice. I still need to catch up on sleeping hours I missed since last week. But then again, we got a company outing tomorrow, and Tatoff & I are going out tonight, so that means less sleep again. Oh well, that's life. I'm not complaining about the latter though. I'm just sad I don't have enough time to do something extraordinary for him.
I wish I had more time for other things. Sana lang. Haaayyyyyy....
2:55 PM
pre-monthsary post
Okay I told myself I won't be mushy in this blog, but anyway.
We're on our 3rd month tomorrow nad until now I can't believe I'm with someone. It just doesn't sink in that fast, I guess. I'm used to my selfish, loner life but having someone seems to have made each day interesting.
Before, I couldn't understand why people can't live without being in a relationship. I still do, but on a different sense. I don't get how people can settle for almost anyone, just to have 'someone'. I don't understand why the search doesn't seem to end for some.
I know we all long to be loved and taken care of, but most of us probably don't want it on a superficial level. It's not as if having a status of 'in a relationship' in friendster, is the most important thing in the world. I really don't get it. Maybe it's just me, but I believe people should first learn how to live 'alone' in order to appreciate and love themselves more, before they get into a commitment. I've always told my friends who drop the 'I can't live without him' line that they're being too emotional. You weren't born with that person. You've lived most of your life without him, so why say you can't survive when he's gone? Of course that's my literal use-your-head-before-your-heart interpretation of that line, but I know they only mean "I don't want to lose him because I love him".
It's already been quite a fantastic ride for the both of us, and we've learned a lot from one another. I proved to myself that some of my issues and fears even before I got into a relationship, were all true. I must say that being with him has taught me to face my fears and deal with them for our own sake, not only mine. I've learned how to acknowledge and conquer, as well as find a solution to compromise. I'm no longer alone in dealing with these, and I'm grateful he has already taught me how to trust and never be afraid because he'll be there for me.
Wow I'm such a cheeseball today. Woohoo. That's enough outpouring of emotions. Baka wala na kong masabi sa letter for him. Hwehwe.
Happy 3rd Monthsary, Pare! You're da best! Aylabyuuu! =)
1:46 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
die issues die!
Why do you have to make your life so complicated?!? I feel messed up again. Why am I swamped with tons of personal issues, man? I swear, this shit is weighing me down ever since, but lately, they seem to be catching up on me altogether. What are they for anyway? For torture, pity, loathe and mutilation? If only I can think of one good purpose.
Stop tormenting me. You won't win. I won't give up on myself, and I won't give up on living a happy life because of you. I hate you all... I hope you all die, rot and never return.
1:00 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
culture shaaackkk
We went bowling last Sunday pala. Now we have body pains. Ugh. Anyway, I went to the CSR Reunion last Saturday. (pics to follow) It's their High school batch's reunion actually, but they invited me anyway. I went to CSR Makati from Grade 5-7. Nomad.
I actually got a bit of culture shock for some reason. Compared to my high school, it's not every day that I sit beside lesbian couples who display affection. Seeing people my age who are already pregnant or have kids doesn't really shock me anymore. And I'm obvioudly not homophobic. It just felt awkward, if you know what I mean. It's funny too coz they have these love triangles among themselves. They were even shocked to see their batchmate, who had 'girlfriends' since grade school, to have bloomed to be a 'woman'. Well we don't know about her sexual preference, but she actually dresses like a girl now, ascompared to before. What could have led to that transformation? Going to a coed college? an awakening? I have no idea. But good for her.
So is it really the environment that determines your preference? Is it the way you're brought up? Is it in the genes? Is it a choice?
I watched an episode in Oprah when they discussed on kids who alreay knew they were in the wrong bodies at age 3! Wow. The specialist said that there are several instances wherein hte fetus' brain develops as a male, but the body as a female, and vice versa. Hmmm. It can be an excuse for the lesbians and gays as well.
What do you think?
I don't really care if people are homosexuals. I actually have a gay childhood friend and I love him. But I just don't feel comfortable with people - regardless of gender - who engage in PDA like there's no tomorrow.
I'll probably eat my words in a couple of months. I hope not. He hates PDA too.
10:14 AM
pixxx
Fooling around beside Watson's. Gwapo and hot si Brent but I heard he's bi. Tatoy took the pic after 4 tries, by the way. Ugh. Hehe joke :)
Tatoy & I before we went bowling last Saturday. Our scores 108-107, 87-88 respectively. Equal ung sum, so tied! Astig! :-D
Aja, Sarah, Wendy & I at Krocodile Grille last night. It's so nice to see my gels again ;)
10:09 AM
D' boys & gel
The Design Department: Abe, Dean, Glenn, Gabby, Tony, EJ, Nuts, Jimmy and me!
Somebody tell me how I survive every day? Hehe just kidding.
I love working with men. And here are the reasons why:
1) they're not sensitive (which becomes a problem sometimes, of course)
2) they don't have mood swings and PMS
3) they don't see me as a threat, I think - because I'm a girl (so is that good or bad? good!)
4) they know how to put up with me without getting pissed
5) they can be disturbed and bugged without getting mad
6) they (though not all, hehe) are gentlemen most of the time
7) they work well under pressure and they don't shriek and freak out
Okay that's too much manly compliments for a day. Hehe :-)
10:06 AM
