taning.
Ito ba'y katapusan, o simula pa lang?
May magbabalik ba o may lilisan?
Manhihinayang ba siya o may pagsisihan?
Tingnan natin ang mangyayari matapos ang isang buwan.
Abangan...
4:48 PM
Friday, June 29, 2007
All-time Overtime Record
Left the office at (drum roll please)... 5 AM!
Back to the office at 10:30 AM.
Haha I just want to mark this momentous occasion. I'm not saying I'm happy about it, of course.
Gusto ko lang maalala ang araw na mas ininda ko ang pagod dahil sa inaasal ng mga boss ko. Mas nakakapagod ang kawalan nila ng respeto sa pagkatao mo, siguro dahil sa tingin nila, sapat na ang perang binibigay nila sa 'yo. Kahit ano pwede nilang gawin o sabihin. Parang binenta mo ang kaluluwa sa demonyo. Wala kong masabi sa tinext mo. Hands down, saludo na talaga ko. Kakaiba talaga ang ugali mo.
Alas-singko ng umaga, matapos ang LAHAT ng ginawa namin para sa proyekto mo, bigla mo na lang kaming papagalitan dahil kayo pang mga 'senior' ang nagpatay ng ilaw at akala mo hindi kami tumulong magsara ng opisina mo. Ibig sabihin dahil mas mataas ang posisyon mo sa amin, kami dapat ang magsara ng pinto mo? Kakaiba ka. Abot impyerno ang ego mo, lolo. May puso ka ba at sigurado kang tao ka? O robot na nagpapanggap na tao? Nalilito na ko.
Pero mabuti na rin na ipinadama mo sa 'kin ang mga 'to. Kasi kahit papaano, nasigurado kong nakakadama at nananatili pa kong tao, hindi katulad mo.
2:38 PM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
babala: magwawala ako.
Galing ako sa opisina. Oo, ngayong araw ng Linggo. Maluwag sa loob kong gagawin 'to kung hindi balahura ang namamahala sa 'min. Nasermunan na naman kami. Hindi daw namin ginawa ang dapat. Ginawa ko 'to kagabi at kaninang umaga noh! Ang totoo nyan, mali ang pinagawa nya sa 'min! Ayaw nya pa aminin sa harap ng big boss. Pero sinabi ko talaga sa harap niya na yun ang sinabi nyang gawin. Leche sya. Kamukha na nga nya si Long Mejia, hindi nya pa gandahan ang ugali nya! Okay alam ko walang konek yun pero bad trip talaga. Makita ko lang mukha nya, nasisira na araw ko.
At eto pa, hindi ako nakapag-simba! Ang tagal kasi ng sermon ng tae, este taong yun. Isang beses nga lang sa isang linggo nakakasimba, tapos ganito pa. At sa lahat ng dahilan, trabaho pa! Trabaho na naman?! Ayoko na! Bwisit na buhay 'to! Wala na kong oras pati sa Diyos ko, dahil sa mga demonyong 'to. Tapos papagalitan ka pa at hindi pa aamin sa mali nya. Tangina talaga. Bakit ba ko pumunta sa bansang 'to?! Tama si Abe. "Fuck green pastures!" Mas mabuti pang walang pera kaysa maubos ang dugo ko sa mga walang kakwenta-kwentang mga tao. O ang mabuti pa, magsimula na kong maghanap ng ibang trabaho. Baka kung ano pang magawa kong masama dito. Sobra na eh. Di dapat hinahayaan mabuhay ang mga ganun tao.
9:18 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
recess na! blog break muna :)
Before this workplace eats me alive and spit me out again, I shall think of happy thoughts and post some photos from the weekend.
3-sixty's youngest ones. Free passes at Zouk last Friday night
Tim's (Kristine's bf) Surprise Birthday Party at Sky Wine Bar at Harbourfront.
Oh here are some pics from my wonderful lipat-bahay experience last June 10 :)
giant kahon!
Klassic Court. May K diba? hehe
new room, yey!
Okay that's all the time I've got. Check out jeniegab.multiply.com for more photos :)
11:27 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
homesickness to the nth power
This is, by far, the worst pain I've ever inflicted upon myself and most of all, to my loved ones.
And I don't even think it's worth it.
4:34 PM
Monday, June 18, 2007
Shyet, I wanna watch JET!
But I can't! Why?
1) It's $97! That's P2,910. (That's free seating, I mean, standing! It's gonna be in a park) Even more expensive than Chucks. Ugh.
2) All my friends who like Jet are in Pinas. In other words, wala kong kasama!
Shyet na malagket. I like Jet.
Haay.
3:35 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
maligayang araw ng kalayaan!
Last Sunday, I moved in to the new apartment in Eunos. I think everyone's happy now. Hehe. I started packing last Friday night and ended before Saturday afternoon. I filled up this giant box, (where 2 adults can actually fit), a small and huge luggage, and had lots of extra bags filled with stuff I didn't know where to put. I rented a lorry (a small truck) which came with 1 Pinoy driver and 1 Pinoy taga-buhat. Thank goodness for that, because I was still tired and slept at 230AM the that day. No thanks to my brother who didn't help me move out! Grrr. Such a lazy buttcrack. Haha!
Anyway, I unpacked and decorated my room last Sunday in a span of 4 hours. I think packing really takes longer because I kept stalling. But I was in a hurry to fix my new nook because I really love it. I rearranged the furniture, stuck all decors on the wall, displayed my beer bottles, found a nice spot for my laptop and YM needs, hung all my clothes in this not-so-spacious cabinet, and stacked 1 million abubots in a corner table. And voila! I have a new wonderful room!
The condo is 2 bus stops and 8 stations away from my office. Sounds far but it only took me 30 minutes to get to work. I wish I had a bike though. So many people in this area travel by bike. Better yet, I wish I had a Vespa or something. That would be great! But I need a license, so I guess a bike will do.
Gotta post pics soon! I need to show my Mom and Tatoff my second humble abode in SG hehe :)
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In other more exhilarating news in my lowly life, Aja sent me a package last Friday night! Weeeee!!!! I was so happy to receive it after such a depressing week at work! Inside it was House Season 3 DVD's, a black shirt with a cat, a necklace with a J pendant, and a DVD of The Science of Sleep! Waaahhhhh! Thanks Aja!!! :-) That gave me enough vigor to pack all my things even if I was so exhausted and just wanted to pass out in bed. The reason why I also packed quickly was because I couldn't wait to watch House! That last episode of Season 2 kept me hanging for a month, man!
Anyway, I'm so grateful for everything. Small heartfelt gestures really make me happy. It gets tiring to be angry and sad all the time. But I didn't ask for this if that's what the Law of Attraction would insinuate. I just want a freaking joyful and harmonious life. A life free from anger and sadness. Wow now this entry actually connects to my title! Haha contrived.
Happy Independence Day, Pinas! I love you and I miss you!!! Hehehe :-)
1:30 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
dear advertising career,
Matagal na rin tayong magkasama. Halos tatlong taon na. Pero sa tatlong buwan kong nandito, bagamat nagbago ka na at ang pagtanaw ko sa 'yo. Ngayong araw na 'to, naramdaman kong konti na lang, iiwan na kita. Hindi ko alam kung ang kumpanya lang ang sumisira sa pagmamahal ko sa 'yo. Ngunit sigurado ako, hindi ko gustong tularan ang karamihan sa mga tao mo. Pasama na ng pasama ang ugali ko dahil sa kanila. Patindi nang patindi ang poot na nararamdaman ko. Ayokong tumandang mas malaki pa ang ulo at ego, kaysa sa puso ko.
Iniisip ko araw-araw kung gusto ba talaga kitang makasama nang matagal sa buhay ko. May napupusuan akong isang trabaho, pero hindi ko naman alam kung gusto nya rin ako. Hindi ko pa naman sinusubukang manligaw. Pero sigurado ko, hindi ko dapat nararanasan ang ganito mula sa 'yo. Akala ko pa naman, kaya kong tiisin ang lahat ng hirap at kaya kong tanggapin ang mga kahinaan mo.
Pag-iisipan kong mabuti ang desisyong ito. Mahirap iiwan ang nakasanayan mo na. Pero hindi dapat magtiis kung hindi ka na talaga masaya. Pagod na pagod na ko sa 'yo. At walang epekto sa kaligayahan ko ang perang binibigay mo, kung pakiramadam ko naman isa kong trapong inaapak-apakan ng mga alagad mo. Kaya ngayon, cool off muna tayo.
Lubos na napapagod sa 'yo,
jenie
10:58 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
my visual DNA - 99% accurate! i love it :-)
11:33 AM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
30 days and counting
July 4 is Independence Day in the United States. It also marks my first visit to the Philippines since I moved here last February. Free at last! Well, only for 5 days. I really just needed to get out and recharge my spirits. I think I aged 4 years in the last 3 months. Very bad. Anyway, I'm really excited. I've been waiting for July 4 since March. Haha! But maybe I should stop counting the days so they can just pass by quickly.
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In other news, I'm exhausted from the weekend. I finally talked to T about the room hunt and of course he didn't allow me to stay with the guy housemate. We discussed about that and unearthed some issues til 230AM. It was one of the worst conversations we've had so far. We almost broke up, man. Whew. I really hate fighting. I know it's normal but it feels worse when you're in a long-distance relationship. Besides, I believe a touch can speak a thousand words, or apologies.
To my surprise, I found another room the very next day and it's a great deal too. I texted the owner at around 2AM and reserved the place at 2PM. The universe really does have its own way of helping when you need it most. Still not the same as the first choice, but this comes as second best. It's closer to the office and it's not just renting the room, but the entire home. I'd still be living with Filipinos in this almost new and cozy apartment. It costs more, but I think it's worth every penny. I'm moving in this weekend already. Things are happening fast, so I'm thinking this month will go by without me noticing it. Second house in less than 4 months. Not bad for a nomad like me.
I can't wait to go home! Ugh I just said I'll stop counting.
7:29 PM
Monday, June 04, 2007
room hunting update
So I've been looking for rooms and texting every person in pinoysg.com for the past two weeks. I've checked out some units, and man, how the hell do you expect me to live there?! I've nothing against living with foreigners, but I definitely have something against living with the elderly. Well, first of all, I don't want a nagger for a landlady. Second, I don't want to live with a couple who looks at me from head to toe when they found out I'm a Filipina. (I'm not a prostitute, you butt!) Finally, I've no plans of living in that extremely old HDB I saw in Lavender and in these ancient looking rooms with beds that looked like they've been possessed by evil leprechauns. No way. I still have my dignity, even if 80% of my pride has been slaughtered in the past 3 months.
Anyway, yesterday was different. When I told my officemate I needed a new place, she immediately called her friends. Then this guy offered a room in their office building. It's unbelievably near the office, but obviously, the main problem is that it's not for residential purposes. And I don't want to do something illegal here of all places.
So he mentioned about his newly-bought apartment in Sengkang. Of course I never really considered living with a guy housemate, but after searching high and low for rooms, I realized that there will always be guys in the house if I'm renting a freaking room anyway. The other one I saw even had 3 guys in the house, a couple and two kids! Whatda!?! They're all Filipinos, but man, that's a lot of people in one condo unit.
Finally, I decided to check out this guy's apartment. That train ride seemed to lasted forever, but when I saw the unit, OMG heaven-sent! It has a splendid view of lush trees and a clean river, and I felt the cool breeze even if it was mid-afternoon. And of course, it's being renovated and even all the furniture will be brand new! Wa lao, perfect! (Haha that's what they say here as an interjection.)
And to add to that, it's not as pricey as the others. Well I need to travel 13 stations to get to work everyday, but what the heck, that's not so bad as compared to living in an a musty room. I guess I need to buy an iPod or that Creative Zen I've been eyeing.
Oh and also, the guy informed me that he has two cats. He probably thought it might be a problem for me. But when my eyes got bigger and I said "Really?! I love cats!", he knew that it wouldn't be a problem.
So what am I trying to say here. That room is by far the best I've seen and considering that everything's brand new, the sum I'll be paying every month is worth it. But... The big BUT... I'll be living with a guy. The "He" you've been reading is not a typo or grammatical error. He's a he. And growing up in a conservative Catholic society, a she is not supposed to live with a he unless they're related by blood. Although it's quite surprising that my Opus Dei mother actually allowed me! The deciding factor? I asked the guy if I can have guests like my mom or friends, and he said "Sure! If you want your Mom can even stay here." Oh ha! Unlike in other apartments I've checked who have rules with guests, this guy doesn't seem to care at all. All he cares is that his housemate must like his cats. Haha, I love cats. So I consider this a really great blessing.
But wait, I'm not done yet. Because I need to get the 100% approval of THE boyfriend. Haha. Well, he actually agreed because I told him the guy knows about him. He even suggested that he tries his luck here in Singapore so he can get a job soon. So there, I still haven't reserved it but after seeing that room, I don't even want to view apartments anymore.
I'm praying Tatoff allows me to rent that room. I swear I'll regret it if I pass up on that deal. Unless someone can find a room with THAT price, then I'll ditch this guy's offer. But right now, I just want to take a break from this room hunting. My freaking tongue is swollen, I can't barely eat and explain that I'm a Filipina who works in an office in the business district, holding a legal employment pass, and I'm a university graduate.
Damn stereotypes and discrimination.
6:09 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
giant kahon!
Klassic Court. May K diba? hehe
new room, yey!
