at last, a happy post!
Why? Because my brother got hired today! Woopee! I'm finally not a loner in a foreign land anymore hehe. Well, we're not that close, but I guess soon we will be. Maybe it's all part of His plan. I'm just glad he got a job because my Mom has been telling me how he's such a pain for her back home. It's time for a new beginning! My mom's definitely happy now. But also assume she's sad to be left by her two offsprings. You know mothers and their imaginary umbilical chords.
Also, I'm elated because tomorrow's a holiday! It's Vesak Day, whatever that is. i just know it's a Buddhist event. Thanks Buddha! Weeee! In this workaholic prison, holidays are rare so they should be celebrated with glee. I hope I accomplish a lot tomorrow and not end up lying in bed or surfing the Net all day. I'm planning to view an apartment, hit the gym and call agents to help me find a room or a unit if I'm realy sharing with 2 more Filipinas. I haven't even met them yet hehe.
Oh I just realized there's an Ateneo gathering tonight. It's in this new BBQ place owned by 4 alumni. I really admire those people. I wish I could do that someday. Hmmm I'm hungry. But my stupid tongue is killing me. I've been biting it in my sleep! How horrible is that?! I've been researching and an article said that it might be a seizure or nocturnal epilepsy?! Whatdafuck! Or in my case, I believe it's repressed and suppressed hostility. I better release all this pent up aggression before I tear my tongue into pieces. So tomorrow shall be a boxing day for me.
I gotta go and meet up with my brother. He asked me to treat him dinenr again. Ugh. I swear I'll get back to him when he gets his paycheck. I've been treating him since he got here! But it's okay, we have a lot of catching up to do with that whole "blood is thicker than water" drama.
Baboosh!
7:07 PM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
i-zouk zouk mo!
Last Saturday, I hit my 3rd month here in Singapore. And I found myself in a place I never expected I would be. At Zouk! A hip and happening club packed with men who can't dance to the beat to save their lives, gyrating women who forgot to wear their pants, couples making out and licking each others' ears in the middle of the dance floor, and perverts who like to grab asses even if you're the most clothed woman in the entire club. (I will kill you, you Indian pig!)
Anyway, I had one hell of a great time even if my feet and toes died, and my hair stank til Sunday. Thanks to Audrey for inviting me to join her friend's birthday :) I haven't danced til 330AM since high school. Haha :-D
More photos at jeniegab.multiply.com
8:10 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
inside a doormat's head
If thoughts could kill, you'd be rotting by now.
But no, don't go yet. I'd rather you die a slow and painful death.
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Okay less morbid thoughts, less morbid thoughts... Beer beer beer. Shit it's not working. I'm doomed.
Hmmm, but I know who will. Waaahhh I miss you T! :(
5:44 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
Maalaala Mo Kaya - OFW Chronicles Part 1
Dear Ate Charo,
Sa wakas at nakasulat rin ako sa inyo. Matagal-tagal ko na ring binabalak na ihayag ang aking mumunting kwento bilang isang OFW. Dahil na rin sa mga nangyari noong nakaraan mga araw, sa tingin ko ito na ang tamang panahon para humingi ng payo sa inyo.
Ngayong linggong ito, tahimik naman ang mundo sa opisina. Hindi ko malaman kung bakit pagkatapos bumait ng boss kong maligalig, may bago na namang mga problemang sumusubok sa akin. Ganun siguro talaga ang buhay. Hindi nauubusan ng problema para lagi kang may pinagkakaabalahan.
Una sa lahat, nabalitaan kong pupunta dito ang kapatid kong panganay. Masaya ako para sa kanya, syempre. Ako pa nga ang nagpadala sa kanya ng mga job opening at sinuwerte naman siyang makakuha ng mga interviews dito. Kaya rin mas napadali ang pag-alis nya ng Pilipinas. Noong Enero, siya ang huling taong makukumbinsi mong magtrabaho sa ibang bansa. Pero dahil sa mga naganap nung nakaraang buwan sa kanyang negosyo, kailangan nyang kumbinsihin ang sarili nyang tumahak sa landas na 'to para na rin sa kanyang pamilya. Buntis pa naman ang asawa niya sa kanilang pangalawang anak. At higit sa lahat, marami siyang kailangang bayaran. Sa palagay ko naman, madali syang makakakuha ng trabaho dito dahil magaling naman siyang arkitekto. Sa totoo lang, dapat matagal na nyang ginawa 'to at hindi pa kinailangang makita nya ang kanyang bunsong kapatid na sumabak sa ibayong dagat, para lang siya matauhan.
Hindi naman talaga problema ang pagpunta niya dito. Mas nababagabag ako sa ikalawa, dahil maliban sa aking kapatid, gusto na rin pumunta dito ng aking ina. Sinuwerte rin syang payagan ng kanyang kumpanya na magbenta ng bahay at lupa sa mga Pilipinong may balak mag-impok sa Pinas.Masaya rin naman ako para sa kanya, subalit nung malaman kong gusto nya nang pumunta dito sa lalong madaling panahon, nagulantang ako. Hindi naman sa masama akong anak, pero isa sa pinakamalaking rason kung bakit ako nakipagsapalaran dito ay para matutunan kong mamuhay mag-isa at para na rin lasapin ang kalayaang matagal ko nang inaasam-asam. At kapag kasama ko ang nanay ko dito, magiging prinsesa na naman ako dahil siya naman ang aako ng lahat ng gawaing-bahay. Isa pa, nadismaya rin ako dahil ang buong akala ko, malaya na ako ngunit mukhang mauudlot pa ang aking pangarap. Pero ano pa bang magagawa ko? Hindi ko naman pwedeng itaboy ang nanay ko dahil hindi ko rin naman sya matitiis. Pero masakit, Ate Charo. Hindi ko maipaliwanag sa iba, ngunit hindi talaga ako natutuwa sa mga nangyayari. Matapos kong lumuha ng mga isang tabo nung isang gabi, natanggap ko na lang na kailangan kong samantalahin ang bawat oras na pwede kong makasama ang nanay ko habang siya ay nabubuhay pa. Nag-iisa ko na lang siyang magulang, at dapat maging mabuting anak naman ako. Pero aaminin ko, mas mahirap talagang magpakabuti sa mundo.
At ikatlo, kailangan kong lumipat ng tirahan sa lalong madaling panahon. Ngayon nakikitira ako sa mag-nobyo kong mga kaibigan galing sa Pilipinas. Pero simula nung umuwi kaming lasing ng kaopisina ko, bagamt nag-iba na ang trato sa akin ng nobya niya dito. Wala naman akong ginawang masama, Ate Charo. Mabait naman akong kasambahay. Hindi naman ako nagkakalat at matipid rin ako sa kuryente. Sabi sa akin ng nobyo nya ilang araw matapos naming umuwing lasing, kailangan ko na daw lumipat dahil pupunta na dito ang kapatid ng nobya nya at maghahanap ng trabaho. Naniwala naman ako, Ate Charo. Ngunit tinanong ko rin sa kanya kung bakit parang nag-iba ang turing ng nobya nya sa akin. Hindi naman daw nya ito napansin. Alam kong hindi magandang umuwi ng lasing at nagsuka pa ko sa taxi at sa kalye, pero wala naman akong ginawang masama sa nobyo nya para siya mainis sa akin ng ganun. Hindi ko rin naman sigurado kung naiinis talaga siya, ngunit nananatili akong multo sa bahay na ito minsan. Tanggap ko na naman yun, Ate Charo. Ang mahirap lang ay ang maghanap ng lilipatan dahil mag-isa lang ako sa bansang ito at konti rin naman ang mga kakilala ko. Sana hindi na lang nila ako kinumbinsing tumira dito bago pa ako umalis ng Pinas. Ngunit sa totoo lang, nasasabik rin akong umalis. Iba rin kasi kapag pakiramdam mong hindi ka welcome sa bahay mong inuuwian. Bago na nga ako sa isang banyagang bansa, tapos ganun pa ang nararamdaman ko kapag nasa bahay. Pinagdarasal ko na lang na makahanap ako ng matinong matutuluyan. Umaasa rin ako na matutunan ko nang ituring bansang ito bilang aking bagong tahanan.
Isa na naman ito sa mga araw na tinatanong ko sa sarili ko kung tama ba itong tinahak kong landas. Mas mahirap na nga ang buhay kahit expat na dapat ang labas ko,ngunit mas malungkot pa rin dahil wala naman ang mahal mo sa buhay. Malungkot kaming dalawa ng aking sinta ngayong linggo. Hindi siya natanggap sa kumpanyang kumausap sa kanya nung nakaraan kaya mukhang matatagalan pa bago kami magkasama dito. Aaminin ko, masaya na rin ako dahil pursigido naman siyang makahanap ng trabaho. Para sa akin, napakalaking bagay na na gusto akong makasama ng aking nobyo nasaan man ako sa mundo. Nakakataba ng puso, Ate Charo. Siya ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nagpapakatatag pa rin ako dito. Pero siya rin ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nagsisisi ako minsan kung bakit pumunta pa ko dito. Pakiramdam ko minsan parang pinarusahan ko lang ang sarili ko at pati na rin ang aking mga naiwan sa Pilipinas.
Yun lang muna ang kwento ko, Ate Charo. Maraming Salamat sa iyong taos-pusong pagbabasa ng liham ko. Hanggang sa muli kong pagsulat. Mukhang marami-raming beses pa ako magbabahagi ng kwento sa 'yo. Ganito ata talaga ang mga nalulumbay na OFW.
Nagmamahal,
jenie
9:47 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
happy 27th!
Yesterday was our 3rd monthsary away from each other. Darn it. Of course I don't have recent pics with him so I'm just getting from the shots taken during my last week in Pinas. How sad. But what the heck, that's life. I'm just glad we finally got Skype working and talked longer for the first time last Saturday night. But it's still kinda weird coz we're not the telebabad type of couple. Because all throughout our relationship, I lived in a condo then moved to a house without a landline. Haha. Anyway, I hope we'll get the hang of it. Haaaayyyy LDR! Why oh why?!?
Happy Monthsary, T! I hope you get my present this week. I keep forgetting I'm supposed to write a week earlier now. :P Hope to talk to you again soon.
Hang in there! I miss you sooooo much!!!
love, jenie
10:56 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
the checklist of the bored and lazy
Self
[x] I am shorter than 5'4. - ugh.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I wish I had a different hairstyle.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I want to have curly hair
[ ] I wear glasses/need glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've shouted at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. - tried to but my Mom followed me.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. - but I refused to leave
[x] I’ve moved houses for more than 5 times.
[x] I’ve lived abroad. – currently living
[x] My biological parents are not together. – umm, because my Dad’s in a better place. hehe
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I've lost a sibling.
[x] I want to have kids someday. – Well, if my husband wants them. But maximum is two, okay?!
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at school.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've had a great boss.
[x] I've had an awful boss.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work
[ ] I've fought with a co-worker.
[ ] I've had a crush on a co-worker.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage/food came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] My toilet door has been opened accidentally by a stranger.
Health
[x] I exercise regularly. - once a week only
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[x] I’ve been rushed to the emergency room. – thanks to gastritis and amoebiasis
Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've travelled out of the country.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to the Eiffel Tower.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. - unintentionally though
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[X] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] I've been in a car crash
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I'm gay/lesbian.
[ ] I'm bisexual.
[x] I'm straight. - I'd like to think so. Haha!
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now. – “miss” is an understatement!
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test/quiz.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight. – I want too though!
[ ] I've been arrested.
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink. – not anymore! Waahhh!
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I've done something stupid while I was drunk and regretted it
[x] I've done something stupid while I was drunk and didn't regret it
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[x] I've smoked marijuana.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've tried cocaine.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time, no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] I've wished someone I hated to die.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've chosen a casket color and the theme of my funeral.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I own a laptop. - 2nd hand but bought it with my own money. Weee!
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I'm brand-conscious.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own something from Gucci or Louis Vitton. - never!
Random
[x] I can sing well. – my mom said. Haha!
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I've watched porn.
[x] I've seen gay porn. - well lesbian porn, not man to man action haha!
[ ] I've watched Hentai (cartoon porn).
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I like reading men's magazines.
[x] I like reading women's magazines.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[x] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I can't cook.
[ ] I like watching the sunrise more.
[x] I like sunsets better.
[x] I’ve been linked with someone from the same sex.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I went out not wearing underwear.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I like Oprah. - well I don't hate her
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun. - I wish I knew
[x] I am in love with love. - sometimes
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. - and cockroaches!
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I'm good at remembering numbers.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest
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Hmmm I should make my life more interesting. And I need to travel more! Ugh.
Oh and I added more statements to make this survey more exciting! Haha :-P Enjoy!
5:56 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
running away
Last night, I was back to my psycho-depressed mood so I just hit the gym to release the tension. But due to my absent-mindedness, I went to the wrong branch and missed the yoga class I'm supposed to attend. So I decided to run.
From the 15-minute jogging non-stop goal in the threadmill, it became 20 then I couldn't running until I reached 30 minutes. The adrenalin helps me deal with the shit I'm feeling so I made it 35, then hit 40 mins. "If only I could run from Singapore to the Philippines and back", I thought.
I think I should run more often. It's a good way of dealing with stress and loneliness. And I literally feel like I'm running away from it all. But not really, because I'm still stationary. "You can run, but you can't hide." That's what they say. The sadness and the frustration will arise and no matter how 'fast' you think you're going to distract yourself everyday, you can never really escape it. You just bring it with you no matter where you go, even if you'd really rather be happy.
11:02 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
must.not.pierce.ear.
It's this feeling again. As if a knife is piercing through my chest. Fuck that. Shoo you, monster! I thought I lost you already!?! I've been quite happy for a week! Go away!!! Sheesh. I feel awful now that he feels bad. I can't blame him because this move has been tough on him too. I've been praying my ass off so he could get a job here though. But still, I'm only human and I get tired trusting on faith. Darn it. Sometimes I wish I were as numb as a rock.
Even what's happening with my family members back home is killing me. My mom's ranting and emoting, while my eldest brother is being a prick. Okay, so they're the only family I got and I'm supposed to be supportive, but c'mon, get yourselves together! I'm tired of being strong for you, people! I'm not Oprah or Dr. Phil, okay?! I don't have all the answers to your issues. What else do you want me to do? Can I regain my 'youngest and supposed to be the most immature' throne back again?! What's wrong with 'older' adults these days?! Sheesh man.
Okay, happy thoughts, happy thoughts...
It's official! F1's going to be held here in Singapore starting next year! Wooopeee! I'm so excited :-) For sure my fanatic friends, JM and Coni are coming over hehe. So that's good news enough. But then, it's next year! So that means I have to wait patiently again. Weee. I'm so tired of waiting and being patient! Okay, sarcasm is trying to surface again. Bye.
6:08 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
must.be.happy
Since I've bombarded this blog with negativity, I'll do my best to make up for it one day at a time. Haha. I'm trying to be happy now so bear with me. There's a good chance we're leaving the office earlier than 9PM tonight. Wooppeee! I hope I make it to my favorite Body Combat class. :-)
Anyway, here are some photos from last night's overtime. We were too stressed and tired so we decided to take a break. Too bad both of them had to leave earlier, while I had to stay til 1130PM and close shop literally! Haha. Okay, I said I'll stop complaining hehe :)
All photobooth shots at jeniegab.multiply.com
8:14 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
random ramblings
On work
I'm sooo tired. I've never left the office happy. Oftentimes, I leave it mad. Not only because of the workload, but because of some superiors who couldn't care less if they're stepping on you, or if their behaviour is worth getting any respect from younger colleagues. I'm tired of going overtime because of inadequate organization. I'm tired of not having time for myself and just going home in time for bed. I'm tired of eating lunch at 130PM or dinner at 9PM. Most of all, I'm tired of not eating breakfast and starting the day with a weak body and a more fragile spirit.
On masochism and homesickness
Yes they're related. At least for me. Haha. Last Friday, I got my upper ear pierced at Far East Plaza. It was a spur of the moment decision. I was heavily burdened, as Christians will put it, so I opted for a quick fix. I know it sounds stupid for some, but it's better than getting drunk then passing out, then regretting everything the morning after. And honestly, dealing with loneliness the Kleenex way isn't really my type of thing. It gets too tiring to be too in touch with your emotions.
When I told Tatoff about it, he knew I did because I was pissed at him. He knows me that well. Although, he's not really the only reason I felt like resorting to physical pain to mask the emotional turmoil. Last week was a whirlwind for me, I don't know why. I just felt so low and of course, didn't tell anyone about it but him and my best friend Aja. I guess those rants were to blame for his hibernation as well. It was wrong for me to have made him feel so left out in all my quarter-life plans. I should've known better.
On writing
Sometimes I don't know why I'm doing this for a living. I don't even proofread my blog entires. Haha. I mean, I enjoy the conceptualizing part but when you're an advertising copywriter, most of the time it's not about writing anything yourself. It's about your Creative Director, the Accounts Head and the Clients telling YOU what and how to write. It's a thankless job, I believe. You write all day and even night, but you end up not finding your voice. It's ironic how both of us junior writers here are the quiet types. Well maybe just in this office. In my case, behind that silence and patience is a furious and frustrated 24-year old writing and cursing in her head, and imagining the most cruel things that she wants to do to those who deserve it. It really helps in dealing with anger, you know? Unless they consider having those intentions as a sin.
On staying in SG
During one YM conversation last week, my friend Ala, who has migrated to Australia a year ago asked me a question I can't believe I couldn't answer. "How long are you staying there?" It was so simple then, when I was jobhunting and excited to embark on a new journey. But now it becomes a harsh reality that I dread dealing with. It's not easy living in a foreign country alone, and especially when your other half is back home. Like what Randy said, "Kalahati ka lang dyan." (Only half of you is there) Well, I really don't want to think so. I still believe it's only YOU who can complete yourself. But then again, it's easier said than done. At the end of the day when I'm lying in bed, the loneliness just sinks in and I ask myself "Am I really staying here for good?" I told myself I would though. Oh I don't know. Only time will tell. I just hope we can be together here. So if someone ask me that question in the near future again, I'll be true blue Pinoy and say "Bahala na." Well, maybe in English.
6:06 PM
solitary stoic
Nice one! :-) Haayyy buhay. hehe :P I hope we all live to be remembered and to make a difference in anyone's life :)
Enjoy the weekend, folks!
6:13 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
How to Save a Life by The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
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I'm currently in love with this song, but I can't seem to download it from Limewire. I wish I knew how to save a life - my own life. Emo na 'to! Damn you, homesickness. I'm so sick and tired of you. Die, die, die.
9:47 AM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
the heat is on!
While everyone's posting Boracay, Galera, and Palawan pics on their Multiply sites, I couldn't help but be drooling and wishing I were in the Philippines to experience what summer really feels like. I know it's also humid here, but then nothing beats the beaches, the road trips and the cheap drinking sprees back home. So instead of sulking at the corner of my room, I found ways to amuse myself without leaving the island. And here's my own version of a sizzling summer in Singapore:
The heat is on with Jackie Chan! Wooohooo!:) Last 28 April at Novena Square
I'm not really in THE LIST of people who can take a photo with him, but what can I say? It pays to be a humble eager beaver! After being told that my name's not on the list, a few minutes after, the girl comes up to me and says, "Do you want to take a photo with Jackie Chan?" Of course I said "Yes!" without batting an eyelash! So from a lowly fan sitting and waiting patiently at the door for hours, I ended up in line while waiting for my turn to have a photo with him. Weee! I couldn't believe it. He had this aura that made my hands and knees shake, and gave me goosebumps all over. Unbelievable! Haha :-) I'm just lucky not many people that day acted like die-hard fanatics like most Pinoys do. They don't scream, push, shove, shout and fight their way to be in THAT list. It's one of the few times I was so grateful to be here in Singapore! Keep up the discipline and the composure, Singaporeans! :-)
More photos at jeniegab.multiply.com.
11:34 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
