20 weekend wishes
I wish pimples never existed
I wish I weren’t so frugal with myself
I wish I knew what I really want to do in the future
I wish my Mom wouldn’t tire herself so much with work
I wish I had more time in my hands
I wish my officemate’s Mom would be okay
I wish I’d able to donate blood next time
I wish money grew on trees
I wish I weren’t a feminist still
I wish people are more open to detachment from others and material things
I wish I were less idealistic
I wish I didn’t create mountains out of molehills
I wish my Mom and my relatives don’t expect too much from me
I wish I didn’t expect too much from myself
I wish I were more patient with the my own weaknesses, as well as others’
I wish I were less hostile and cynical
I wish I were more numb and indifferent in some aspects
I wish I weren't invited to attens a f**** Op__ D__ recollection weekly
I wish I didn’t have to deal with the laziness and mediocrity of others
I wish I were more content
I wish drinking beer were healthy
3:15 PM
Friday, January 27, 2006
sipi ng isang pagsusulit
Hindi ko na maalala yung ibang salita, kaya sumuko na ko! 83 minus 10 kasi tumulong yung ibang kaopisina. Pero sumakit ulo ko dito. Buti na lang na-unlock ng boss ko yung formula ng excel file. Take note lang: Mali ang kahulugan ng 'valley'. Dapat 'lambak' hindi 'burol' kasi diba 'hill' yon?! :-P
3:51 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Tattle tales: a 5-day recap
Because this is the journal of my days:
Friday
- took an FX and had no coins. Had to pay P500 to the utmost dismay of the driver
- met up with T in front of , had dinner at Oody’s and had another memorable night =)
Saturday
-got home during the wee hours of the morning but managed to drag myself to the gym for my 1st boxing lessons
-had so much fun punching, but was tortured during the latter parts
-commuted to Katipunan after, then met up with peeps at Tia Maria’s
-free wonderful alcohol c/o Paula, with her juicy hush-hush kwento :-D
-People present were: Tatoff, JM, Pau, Jeff, Pong, Coni, Randy, Abby, Kim, Joseph (Jm's pinsan) and I
Sunday
-took Pau home to Cainta then had to stay over T’s house because it we were groggy and Makati is not near Antipolo
-slept in his sister’s room
-woke up early to watch Pacquiao’s match and little did we know that they were celebrating their town’s fiesta that day, and I was wearing the same clothes I had since Saturday
-was glued to the television from 930AM despite our lack of sleep
-his parents prepared lots of food then distant relatives dropped by and watched the match too
-knew that Pacquiao would win in the 10th round, but just when that round began, the group of loud Ati-Atihan dancers paraded in front of their house and we couldn’t hear a thing; hooted and clapped anyway =)
-went home because I felt stinky already, heard mass at Don Bosco then went to the roof deck. Realized I’ll miss that place and all the cheesy moments if ever we move. Hekhek!
Monday
-work load’s not that bad but body pains from boxing began to take its toll. Couldn’t walk properly, and even laughing hurts
-was supposed to donate blood for my officemate’s mom but before going to MMC, we realized that most of us in this floor aren’t qualified because of the happy brownies almost 2 weeks ago. There goes my 4th failed attempt to donate :-P
Today
- I’ll go to the gym after work inspite remaining body aches because I’m even more inspired and determined to learn boxing, thanks to Super Man-ny :-D Idol, grabe!
4:05 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
mood swing swing
It's been an extremely topakful week. Not only because my monthly frien-emy is here, but because... I don't know what else.
Anyway, here are the effects of my topak:
Monday
- fought with mother and told her i want us to move out of the condo because I don't have my own room/ privacy
Tuesday
- didn't wanna go home so I decided to go to Tatoff's house even if I know he's busy.
- I took the MRT and LRT2 on a whim
Wednesday
- didn't wanna go home yet to I told Tatoff to meet me in Gateway.
- we fought then talked along the hallway of the condo. We were okay after an hour
Thursday
- I went to Red Corner with Ezra. I joined using someone's account in SunLife to get that huge discount.
- I was too lazy but at least I worked out for an hour and my backache disappeared
Friday
- During lunch a while ago, I cheked out this condo unit which I thought had a great deal, but Mama didn't want it. She said I should contribute at least 5thou a month so we can afford it. Darn.
- I decided to look for more condos, and I'm checking another one tonight. But I'm feeling pretty hopeless because Mama's not helping me, (given that she's a real estate broker for almost 20 years!) and the contract of our condo ends on January 25. That's 5 days from now! :S Waaahhh! If we don't find a place by then, we'll have to stay in the 36th floor for another year! Waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
I know I'm being a brat but when you're living with your mother, although you'd rather live separately, you'll understand what I mean. Having an own room is my only 'escape' from this and it's so frustrating because I can't even have that. And I'm almost 23 years old! Sheesh. How pathetic.
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In other news, here are some reasons to be happy:
( I was recently advised to look at the beauty of things)
1) It's our 11th monthsary!
- it's been a tough month and we've learned a lot, but it's worth it. I can't believe we'll be having our anniv next month. Huwaw! Thanks for all the memories and the lessons I've learned from our relationship. Happy 11th month, Tatoff!
lovingly yours, jenie
2) Tatoff got a call from the school he applied in and he's having his personality test tomorrow! Woohooo!!! I think he's hired! He already had an interview, a test and a 40-minute teaching demo in front of 6 supervisors. Weeeeeeeehhhh!!!! I'm so proud of him! :-D (i just hope and pray the offer's good, at least)
3) It's Friday!
- I know it's psychological but I'm elated every Thursday night because I'll wake up to a Friday. We're going out tonight and I can't wait :-)
All in all, I'm glad I survived this whole week, again. :-D
* Wow, I'm all giddy but for sure on Monday, I'll be ranting again. Geesh, what's new? :P
5:05 PM
Friday, January 20, 2006
topak-man
While dealing with my monthly topak last night, I watched:
- Lost
- Nip/Tuck on etc
- Beavis & Butthead in HBO
- News Central on Studio 23
- MTV Homecoming (where I saw Jerp say nothing hehe)
- Entertainment Tonight
- And another episode of Nip/Tuck
I don’t know why but I find Christian, the manyakis doctor, hot. It must be his incubus-like role in Charmed. Yikes.
But despite all the shows and distractions, I didn’t lose my topak until this morning. Geesh. I hate it when this happens. I actually told my Mom that I want us to move out of the condo because after one freaking year, I finally got tired of not having privacy in my little bedroom-sala corner, beside the dining table. Yes I endured that without complaints, until last night. But it was dumb of me because our contract expires on January 25, and if we don’t renew it or find a place soon, we’d have to go back to the Laguna house. And that’s another huge problem. I’d have to commute (which I don’t really mind except for extreme OT days), my Mom has to drive all the way to Makati daily, Tatoff and I might not be able to visit me in that faraway land as often, etc. etc. Ugh. And what do I get in return? Privacy of my own room. And a house, on land with pets. Yes, those things do matter after a year of living 36 floors above ground. Argh, I hate this schmuck dilemma. How many times do we have to move out?!?! Can’t we just stay in one house and be normal?!?!
Okay, I know my blabbing won’t do anything. I better help find a place before January 25, or else we’ll be stuck in that cramped 36th floor unit for a year again. Darn life. I want my own room and “space”, man. I’m doomed to being a kid tugging along her mother’s saya. But hopefully, things will be different next year. I’ve found a way.
11:20 AM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
emo mode
"Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?"
- "Somewhere Only We Know", Keane
7:15 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
wassup dock? :)
taken by Xander 'yan! Hwehwe :-P
5:49 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
life's a sunday beach
Some of the scenes during the shoot yesterday, Jan.8 (3AM - 930PM!) at Eagle's Point, Anilao, Batangas.
on our way to the island! Ayan ang 3 banyagang hindi namin maintindihan kung anong wika! Portueguese pala :P
Xander, the wonderful photographer. With Dean, Abe and Ian of the agency
Ian, kala ko ba clouds ang pi-picturean?!? Hehe pero okay narin, mas gusto ko 'to sa ulap :-)
Matt & Juliana doing their thing. Bawal mag-squint kahit may buhangin sa mata, ,malaki bayad sa inyo! hehe.
Ayan nasama rin tayo sa pic, Ian! with Frank, Cathy, Cezanne & Johann
"It's a wrap!!!" Back at the resort after the shoot. I heart the beautiful sunset beach! ;-D
So that's how my Sunday disappeared. Bangag at puyat, pero nakakabawas ng pagod ang dagat, pawikan at abs ng ibang kalalakihan. Hahaha! (Sorry Tatoff, I'm just really fascinated by those toned and visible set of muscles :)
Oh yeah, we're okay now. Wooohhoooo! Let's celebrate! :-)
Sorry about my melodramatic posts before this.
But life's like that. One day you're weeping in a 38-floor building, then watching hunks topless along the shores of the beach, the next day. ;-D
2:57 PM
to wallow is human
I took Mia’s advice after dinner last night: to pray, wallow and wait. I decided to walk from Ayala Ave. to Pasong Tamo then found myself at the Don Bosco Adoration Chapel with a pack of tissues. And finally, I prayed sincerely and dealt with the stabbing pain that I’ve never experienced before; a different kind of pain that I thought I could compare to the loss of my Dad and brother. I thought I could handle any kind of pain after that, but I was wrong. And up to now, I can’t seem to figure out why.
After two hours, the longest time I ever stayed in a chapel, and a half-empty I felt lighter, and stronger. I wanted to go to his house last night to talk but my friends made me realize that I should give it time, and give him the space he needed and wanted.
A while ago, he texted me and agreed to talk tonight. That’s already one prayer answered, thank God. I told myself while weeping in that cold chapel that this time, I won’t say anything to hurt him or put him down. This time, I won’t even dare threaten us with a break up when there’s another way to solve the problem. This time, I won’t let him go and give up – not until the love’s gone, and our commitment to each other is broken.
11:47 AM
Friday, January 06, 2006
parusa
T******* buhay 'to...
Masakit na nga ulo sa trabaho, masama pa loob ko.
Bakit ganito?!?
Kahit hindi ko naman iniisip, natutulala pa rin ako.
Namatayan na 'kong lahat dati pero nasa sarili pa rin ako.
Pero ngayon, bakit hindi ko masyadong maitago.
Ang hirap pala.
Ayoko na.
Isang napakabigat na parusang inaakalang magiging madaling solusyon sa tila napakagaan namang problema.
Suko na 'ko.
5:02 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
it's been 18 long hours...
"What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side,
That you don't want me there in your life..."
- What If, Coldplay
5:35 PM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
break (v.)
-to vary or interrupt continuity
-to stop, to wear out, to come apart
-to diminish or discontinue abruptly
-to cease an action temporarily
-to interrupt the flow
-to find the solution
-to consider that letting go is an option
-to hold on and hope for the best
11:35 PM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
start d year with a survey! :P
What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Entering a relationship. Hwehwe. Saka na-regular sa work, yehey! And parading in front of so many people while wearing a doobie headgear!
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Never kept resolutions :P
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nah.
Did anyone close to you die?
Wala. Buti naman.
What countries did you visit?
Wala. Ugh.
What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
More time and money for travel!
What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Duh. February 20, 2005 syempre. =)
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting a job and not resigning from the company after 6 months. Weeeh!
What was your biggest failure?
Wala namang ‘biggest’ pero may mga sablay sa relationship minsan. Being too tactless and rational can hurt sometimes
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Gastritis and indigestion – twice in a year. First time to be rushed to the ER by my friends dahil sa lecheng tahong ng Krocodile Grille.
What was the best thing you bought?
Wala. I’m not the shopping type who would rejoice over what I bought. I don’t like being attached to material things.
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Umm… Mine? For getting a job in Feb after 3 months of bumming and depressing over it. And Tatoff, for resigning from that company.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The President. And my own behavior, as usual.
Where did most of your money go?
Pirated DVDs (which I plan to dispose after a while), dates and trips with Tatoff and friends =)
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Tatoff haha joke! Seriously, whenever we win pitches at work.
What song(s) will always remind you of 2005?
Brighter than Sunshine by Aqualung. Ang emo, bwahaha!
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier =)
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter and heavier UGH!
iii. richer or poorer? Richer dahil may trabaho na
What do you wish you'd done more?
Read books and exercised!
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Watch useless TV programs
How many one-night stands?
Nyek no way
What was your favorite TV program?
Desperate Housewives, and some etc shows
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Wala. Yey!
What was the best book you read?
Nakakahiya pero the last book I read was Angels and Demons. Tsk tsk.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Franz Ferdinand, kahit 2 songs lang alam ko. Maroon 5 and Keane.
What did you want and get?
A stable job in a wonderful company!
What was your favorite film of this year?
Corpse Bride, Amores Perros
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 22. Drank with friends and gave Tatoff the ‘reply’ then got together after talking for 3 hours, til sunrise!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I think about it, I’m actually very satisfied with my ‘05.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Ganun pa rin. Comfort over style haha!
What kept you sane?
Pirated DVDs, sleeping and talking to good friends.
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
None
What political issue stirred you the most?
Gloriagate syempre
Who did you miss?
My close college and high school friends! Two of them work for Superferry and the other one worked as an FA in Saudi.
Who was the best new person you met?
Some wonderful officemates. Some lang hehe joke!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
Love wholeheartedly. Never stop persevering. Live without regrets. (sniff sniff)
What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
That my being driven is an inspiration, and that I deserve to be happy
the most touching experience you've had this year?
Roofdeck and condo moments, getting Tatoff’s comic strip Christmas gift. =) Priceless =)
What did you like most about yourself this year?
My being understanding, honest and open-minded
What did you hate most about yourself this year?
My being too honest and insensitive a times.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"It’s brighter than the sun… It’s brighter than the sun, sunshine." Haha mushy smashy!
Was 2005 a good year for you?
Oh yeah!
What was your favorite moment of the year?
Refer to the touching moments
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Stressful and annoying days at work, nasty fights with T
Where were you when 2005 began?
In a street party at Ayala Ave.
Who were you with?
with my Mom
Where were when 2005 ended?
At our Laguna house
Who were you with when 2005 ended?
With my Mom and Lola
Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2006?
Exercise!!!
What was your favorite month of 2005?
February :)
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
Just lost touch with some people, I guess
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yup. High school friends.
What was your favorite record from 2005?
Keane, Coldplay, Maroon 5, A Lot Like Love soundtrack
How many concerts did you see in 2005?
None. Ugh.
Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
Definitely.
do a lot of drugs in 2005?
Yeah. Tsk tsk.
you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Passing out like a dead hippo along the shores of Puerto Galera while T and my officemates failed in their attempts to carry me back to the hut. Ugh.
How much money did you spend in 2005?
I don’t know and I’ve no plans of doing accounting
What was your proudest moment of 2005?
As usual, puro work-related.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Puerto Galera nung summer. And just days ago when we stayed overnight in Antipolo
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
Wala naman. Well, I guess I should know my alcohol tolerance limits next time.
What are your plans for 2006?
Get ready for THE PLAN. =)
How are you different now that the year has ended?
Now I make the most out of the present and I’m even more excited about the future :-D
What are your wishes for the new year?
Peace of mind and good health for my Mom, wisdom and stability for my brother, a stronger and longer relationship for Tatoff and I, and lastly, I wish for unwavering courage and a steadfast spirit in the pursuit of THE PLAN. ;-)
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CONCLUSION:
Ang mushy ng mga sagot ko at alcoholic, aduk at inlababo ako buong 2005.
Nawa'y maging masaya rin ang 2006.
Bow :-)
4:57 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
