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meet the predator
call me jenie
born on 02/20/83 after my Dad & Mom drank beer and ate balut 9 months before
lives in Singapore, but always a Pinoy at heart
works as an advertising copywriter, but hates proofreading her blog entries
loves true friends, fake DVD's, alternative music, alcohol, sarcasm, boxing, hatha yoga, and House (the TV series,not the music genre)
loathes indifference, power trippers, narcissists, giant egos and bad breath
tries to live by the quote "Postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing." by Anais Nin
pre-monthsary post
Okay I told myself I won't be mushy in this blog, but anyway.
We're on our 3rd month tomorrow nad until now I can't believe I'm with someone. It just doesn't sink in that fast, I guess. I'm used to my selfish, loner life but having someone seems to have made each day interesting.
Before, I couldn't understand why people can't live without being in a relationship. I still do, but on a different sense. I don't get how people can settle for almost anyone, just to have 'someone'. I don't understand why the search doesn't seem to end for some.
I know we all long to be loved and taken care of, but most of us probably don't want it on a superficial level. It's not as if having a status of 'in a relationship' in friendster, is the most important thing in the world. I really don't get it. Maybe it's just me, but I believe people should first learn how to live 'alone' in order to appreciate and love themselves more, before they get into a commitment. I've always told my friends who drop the 'I can't live without him' line that they're being too emotional. You weren't born with that person. You've lived most of your life without him, so why say you can't survive when he's gone? Of course that's my literal use-your-head-before-your-heart interpretation of that line, but I know they only mean "I don't want to lose him because I love him".
It's already been quite a fantastic ride for the both of us, and we've learned a lot from one another. I proved to myself that some of my issues and fears even before I got into a relationship, were all true. I must say that being with him has taught me to face my fears and deal with them for our own sake, not only mine. I've learned how to acknowledge and conquer, as well as find a solution to compromise. I'm no longer alone in dealing with these, and I'm grateful he has already taught me how to trust and never be afraid because he'll be there for me.
Wow I'm such a cheeseball today. Woohoo. That's enough outpouring of emotions. Baka wala na kong masabi sa letter for him. Hwehwe.
Happy 3rd Monthsary, Pare! You're da best! Aylabyuuu! =)
1:46 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
