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meet the predator
call me jenie
born on 02/20/83 after my Dad & Mom drank beer and ate balut 9 months before
lives in Singapore, but always a Pinoy at heart
works as an advertising copywriter, but hates proofreading her blog entries
loves true friends, fake DVD's, alternative music, alcohol, sarcasm, boxing, hatha yoga, and House (the TV series,not the music genre)
loathes indifference, power trippers, narcissists, giant egos and bad breath
tries to live by the quote "Postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing." by Anais Nin
psychoanalysis again?!?
We just finished with our Presentation Skills Seminar with a great stand-up comedy group. Though there were many praises about my personality, like being confident and trustworthy, I can’t stop thinking about one comment made by a facilitator after an individual extemporaneous speech activity.
“You have emotional roadblocks and if you let them go, you’ll unleash more creativity, a creative power that you never thought you had.”
I know what roadblocks he’s talking about but I really don’t have any idea how to completely ‘let go’, because I believe I have. I can actually say with a straight face that my Dad and brother passed away already. What’s the heck is wrong with saying it as statements of fact about your life? Am I supposed to shed tears whenever that topic is mentioned? It’s a part of me and I don’t see the need to dwell on those whenever I’m reminded of them. It’s been almost a decade for Christ’s sake!
Nonetheless, he said I might just think I’m over those issues, but in reality I’m not. I don’t really know what to do about it, even if I’d want to unleash that immense creative power he’s talking about. I just wish it were some other issue he’s conveying. Well, I can’t think of any pressing issue I mentioned in that impromptu monologue. But if it’s that never-ending family topic, I have to admit I’ve no more tears to weep because I really believe I’ve accepted those FACTS already.
But I guess the fact that it bothered me the entire day means something. Hmm… Actually I’m just concerned about the intensity of my creativity. :P
6:45 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
