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meet the predator
call me jenie
born on 02/20/83 after my Dad & Mom drank beer and ate balut 9 months before
lives in Singapore, but always a Pinoy at heart
works as an advertising copywriter, but hates proofreading her blog entries
loves true friends, fake DVD's, alternative music, alcohol, sarcasm, boxing, hatha yoga, and House (the TV series,not the music genre)
loathes indifference, power trippers, narcissists, giant egos and bad breath
tries to live by the quote "Postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing." by Anais Nin
banidad blues
If there's one thing I never overcame since puberty, it's my insecurity with my skin. Most of my Pinas friends don't know this, but my skin has gone from not so bad to WORSE since I lived here in Singapore. I've had heat rashes on my forehead, chest and back! And after I suffered my first facial, it even got worse! And after my second, I was still never contented. I thought I needed to fix it before I visit home soon. But no way am I going to to the 'authentic' dermatologist which robs you $125 only for consultation fee! I'm still not vain, maybe. Or I guess I'm just plain kuripot.
Some say it's the weather, maybe the food, some say it's stress, or it maybe purely psychological. But whatever the freaking reason is, I'm just really frustrated. And my frustration has hit rock bottom this weekend when I took matters into my own hands, literally. I have this really bad habit of pricking 'things' on my face. especially when I'm depressed or angry. So here goes my karma. My forehead is now full of scars, it looks like I had chicken pox. I don't think any derma can fix this in two days, or even the thickest layer of concealer. Believe me, I've tried. So I'm left with these options:
1) wear a cap - I don't care if people think I'm pa-cute or pa-porma. I'm sure you'd rather see me wear this, than see my hideous forehead! But i don't think it's cool to be wearing a cap at night. Sigh.
2) have a haircut with those japanese-looking bangs - I tried it to see how it looks and my officemates said I should do it. Thing is, most girls here have that haircut and I know it's gonna make me look more Chinese. I'm also scared I'll get more breakouts after. But it's the best quick fix I can think of right now. Besides, I never had bangs since I was 6 and I haven't had a haircut in 4 months. Maybe it's about time!
3) pray that the Skin Fairy will have mercy on me then wake up on Wednesday morning with flawless skin.
Anyway, I know my friends don't really care about how look like when I visit home, but I do and I hate it. It's my main vanity-slash-insecurity. And whenever I see these mega-kinis Chinese in the MRT without pores or a trace of pimples, I'm reminded of my skin problems. I know it's in their genes, that's why it's even more disappointing. I don't know what my derma will say when she sees me haha. But what the heck, it's not may fault. Well, it sort of is. Although I never really started it! I can't really control all these nasty rashes, can I? Haay. How sad. I'm such a prick. (No pun intended) While some people worry about losing their limbs or life-threatening problems, I worry about this stupid forehead. I know, I'm getting too shallow. But bear with me. I'm just sooo frustrated at how everything is going on with my life right now, and I'd like to think my I can resolve this issue. Obviously, I also can't.
This entry is also supposed to be a warning to all the friends I'll see. I can already here some saying "Anong nangyari sa balat mo?!!" At least now you know the answer.
Weeee 2 tulog na lang!!! I can't wait to see you all soon! Just please don't stare at my forehead! Bwahahaha! :-)
2:56 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
